As I sit and ruminate on this last day of the year, I can’t help but look forward. I’ve got a good feeling about 2013, but I wouldn’t have gotten there without 2012. Here is my year in review, the good, the bad, and the ugly, in no particular order.
In 2012, I:
Lost my grandmother.
Continued to search for my patience.
Realized I am now middle aged. And I feel like it.
Made new friends.
Saw the true colors of some old, now ex ones.
Came to accept that, no matter how many people encourage me, I am not cut out to parent. And that’s okay.
Put major obstacles in the way of my relationship.
Helped rip apart an entire room, right down to the studs. Complained the whole time.
Gained new appreciation for (and was decidedly turned on by) my girlfriend’s determination.
Released my first collection of short stories.
Weaned myself off my anti-anxiety meds because I was disconnecting from life.
Got my shit together and re-invested in my relationship.
Found myself at my heaviest ever–EVER–with extra tummy and a larger jeans size.
Decided I despise being in my 40s.
Realized it’s better than the alternative.
Started planning my wedding.
Became determined to get into better shape before my wedding date of December 28.
Cut back on my alcohol intake.
Tried hard to learn to just relax and breathe. (Still trying.)
Became a member of a writing group for the first time.
Moved my writing space to a different, sunnier room in the house and love it.
Had four meltdowns over the holidays.
Realized how very, truly lucky I am to have the partner I have.
Wondered how she continues to put up with me and my idiosyncrasies for all these years.
Gave up working out.
Decided to work out regularly.
Went from being irritated by Duncan to loving and adoring him.
Revamped my entire website.
Watched too many people kill too many other people and wondered what the hell is happening in this world.
Became addicted to the HGTV network.
Ripped out our entire front yard landscaping with my bare hands and started over.
Made split pea soup for the first time. Delicious!
Finally heard my audio book after two years. Strangely impressed.
Went to Womens Week without Bonnie. Won’t do it again.
Struggled financially, but managed to survive.
Look forward to the new year with an enthusiasm I’ve never had before. Weird.
I also made a list of resolutions…something I haven’t done in years. I even hung that list up so I can look at it every day and monitor my progress. How about you? Any big resolutions this year? Share with me! Let me know I’m not the only crazy one…
I continue to subscribe to the belief that I have the best readers in the whole world. Please keep writing to me and letting me know what you think of my work. Your support really keeps me going, especially on those days when I’m sure I am a talentless hack. Happy New Year to all of you. Much love!